FOUR SIMPLY DIFFICULT QUESTIONS:

HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THE PAST YEAR?

Well, do I have to be honest? Yes, yes I do...
     I wasted the last year!  That is the truth, I wasted the last year!  I didn't work on my goals, dreams, or even my relationships.  I didn't do anything I planned on doing.  I kind of got in the mode of if it comes it comes, if not I will continue to live day to day without a destination.  I let my emotions be dictated by others, I'm not sure that I truly felt anything honestly.  I have been a robot.

WHAT GAVE YOU PLEASURE? HOW AND WHY?

Honest, again?
     Nothing, at least nothing of great consequence?  Obviously, I had little moments with kids, dogs and parents; but I was very much a robot, not truly embracing anything.

WHAT EXPERIENCES WERE A SOURCE OF PAIN? WHY?

I am really not liking this honest look at the last year...
       Back to being a robot, I really haven't felt much of anything.  My pain came from a lack of desire to truly live.  I have just gone through the motions.

WERE MOST OF THE EVENTS DRIVEN BY YOU OR BUY OUTSIDE FORCES?

Honest?
     Outside forces, I have lived the last year for others.  What is really sad about that is it wasn't in a "people pleasing" kind of way; it was a bare minimum to keep all those around me satisfied enough to not give up on me.  But, nothing more.  I have just crawled my way through, wishing I had a different life.

I think some changes need to be made, this is not how we are meant to live...
I am changing!